Journal Entry

Written on 7/19/2009 just now. Not sure if it's finished, but I just want to post.


Here I am writing again
Only during the highest of highs
Or the lowest of lows
When I’ve got the full moon fever
The shakes and the sighs
Grab the pen and the paper
Now I just need your ear
It’s probably about you
So it’s something you should hear

I’m either confessing my love or maybe my pain
It could be both regardless I’m doing it again
But now you know that you’re my muse
The fuse is lit, I’ve got my excuse
A new song becomes a new journal entry
If I’m gonna write I’m gonna let the whole world see
Yeah, if I’m gonna write I’m gonna let the whole world see
But until the execs come a-knockin’ it’s you that will be my critic too
One day the whole world will know it’s about you

I’m gonna sit here
I’m gonna drink my wine
I’m gonna wish and hope some lyrics can save my life
Isn’t it romantic that I’m doing this?
A song written about you, isn’t that your wish?
Because it’s just what I need
Another serious, sad, ego-feeding love confession

But now you know that you’re my muse
The fuse is lit, I’ve got my excuse
But now you know that you’re my muse
The fuse is lit, I’ve got my excuse

Springsteen: Greensboro 5/02/09

Springsteen: Greensboro 5/02/09

Bruce: Greensboro 5/02/09

Bruce Springsteen: Greensboro 5/02/09

From the ol' phone again.

I met Bruce Springsteen!

And I took this photo with my camera. I was lucky enough to snap the photo in Tulsa, OK. My first show of the Working On A Dream Tour. It wasn't my dream meeting by any chance, but at least it occurred. I told him I went to quite a few shows on the Magic Tour, and that out of all the shows St. Louis was my favorite. So, I questioned when he would tour Missouri again. I got the obvious Bruce giggle and, "Well, we always get there eventually," or some similar answer. I then blurted out, "But it took six years last time!" Oops.

I hope you aren't tired of Bruce pics from LA

LA: 4/15 and 4/16

Yet more LA pictures

More Bruce in LA

Bruce Springsteen: LA 4/15/09 and 4/16/09

The first photo was taken by a friend near me. All photos taken with my phone.

Wadi Rum Sunrise

Jordan 2007. Beautiful sunrise at Wadi Rum.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xr2QGEnrJoE

If I Got Something Good (update w/ audio)

Someone at a Pearl Jam board I post at likes my lyrics and used some of them set to music along with him singing. Check it out here:
http://www.mediafire.com/?sharekey=ef7e232153e0045dab1eab3e9fa335ca5b7955ff9adfa398

I posted the full lyrics not too many posts back. And here are the lyrics used in the song:

Something about your eyes
The way they shine
Something about your body
The way it presses against mine
It all feels so right
It all feels a little too good
Sure not going to last
And I have learned
If I got something good it’s gonna end soon

I got a big empty hole and nothing to show
I got a big empty hole and you’re a friend in this world
I have so many friends
I need you to be more…

Speak Easy (Speak Nothing)

Again, more.



Speak easy, speak nothing
Speak a million words in a million ways
Speak it all to me without solving the problems we see
Speak it all but we’ll say nothing
In a tangled mess all your big words from your tattered dictionary
Flow from your mouth to my head and you think I need an explanation
Only if it’s of your complication because I own a dictionary too
And I’ve read it through and through and once again just to discern

But I’ve figured if you speak nothing, I mean really speak nothing
Maybe I’ll die, I’ll let my feelings die
Maybe this tie of all connections we have will break off and float to the sky
I’ll speak easy of a love from the past
I’ll be old, but it won’t last
I’ll see options, so many that I‘ll have, but I won’t make them my opportunity
For something else to have but not have, to love and not stop
And be hurt again
No thank you, I’m done with that ball and chain

But I can pretend, I can climb the mountain, from the top I can shout
Be easy, be free, look at me, but I’ll just speak nothing, I won’t be free
I’ll just imagine that you weren’t for me
You say if I want the best, go love the rest
But not the one that isn’t good enough, but settle, please settle
You must find love though it’s not everything
And you must settle, baby, please settle
Best and settle don’t sound habitual, not together side by side
So I’m confused just a little and this is how nothing is spoken
Contradictions and round about ways to show your affection is a token

Speak easy, speak nothing
Speak a million words in a million ways
Speak it all to me without solving the problems we see
Speak it all but we’ll say nothing
In a tangled mess all your big words from your tattered dictionary
Flow from your mouth to my head and you think I need an explanation
Only if it’s of your complication because I own a dictionary too
And I’ve read it through and through and once again just to discern

But I’ve figured if you speak nothing, I mean really speak nothing
Maybe I’ll die, I’ll let my feelings die

Anyone Can Tire Of This

Another one.




Knock, knock
You say who’s there
I say open up
Let me show you I care
I’ve walked alone
It’s a thin line
This solitude can wear down over time
Anyone can tire of this
Anyone can tire of this

Hello. Hello
Excuse me while
I feel sorrow
Pick me up
Show me tomorrow
Don’t break my heart tonight

Anyone can tire of this (loneliness)
Anyone can tire of this (loneliness)

Is this way right
‘Cause my heart says it is
If I cry
Will it wash away your fear
Ah, my dear

Oh, don’t break my heart tonight
I won’t break your heart anytime
Don’t break my heart anytime
Don’t…not now

This solitude can wear thin over time
Anyone can tire of this
Anyone can tire of this

Anyone can tire of this (loneliness)
Anyone can tire of this (loneliness)

Silent Screaming

And more...




I found you there
Standing by the door
You were smiling silently
Looking down where
I could not read your thoughts
But I could see
You were thinking
And I wondered what about
You started moving closer now
Nothing out of the ordinary
That’s where I wish it would stop
One day what you think
Will come out on top
Until then we must be content
Walk in circles until we are spent

Dance with me please
This dance of sweet misery

A movement of the hand
It grabs my attention
Sitting next to me you don’t realize
That each movement holds my breathing
I’m sitting here and I’m wishing
That these few minutes will last forever
The touch of your body against mine
Sitting together and you probably don’t even recognize
That existing here only for these minutes with you
That would suit me just fine
Sitting there without a sound
Only the creaking of the house
And the breathing of me and you
But I realize we aren’t alone
And as the shadows fall I start to sigh
I tried to say what is on my mind
Too many people crowded around
Waiting for the news to spill on out

They see, the trees see
The birds and the bees see
All know that we know
And the dance is sweet
But my brain’s tired and so are my feet

Song For You

More writing from me.



I wanna watch you dream
Wanna watch you dream, mmm
Tell you the truth
This song is for you

I wanna know you love
Wanna know you love, yeah
Let me know you feel
Cause this song is for real

I wanna feel your touch
Wanna feel your touch, mmm
Guess I want too much
Sure I’ve said enough now

But this is me
I feel and I breathe
I break and I bleed
And I sing this for you

I try to let go
But if it’s working
It’s hopelessly slow
And doesn’t stop my dreaming

I wanna watch you dream
Wanna watch you dream, mmm
Tell you the truth
This song is for you

I wanna know you love
Want you to know my love, yeah

If I Got Something Good

Something about your eyes
The way they shine
Something about your body
The way it presses against mine
It all feels so right
It all feels a little too good
Sure not going to last
And I have learned
If I got something good it’s gonna end soon

Something about your words
The way they thrill me
Something about your promises
We never get to see
It all was a little too much
Blinded by the rush
And I have learned
If I got something good it’s gonna end soon

It brought me to my knees
And it brought you to your feet
I was going straight and you u-turned
I can’t say I know what you feel, but I sit here and yearn
If there has ever been one thing that I can teach
It’s don’t give your heart to a man with too many words
I allowed him to reach
He buried inside and somehow I didn’t mind
But now you’re gone
I got a big empty hole and nothing to show
I got a big empty hole and you’re a friend in this world
I have so many friends
I need you to be more…

Something about your eyes
The way they shine
Something about your body
The way it presses against mine
It all feels so right
It all feels a little too good
Sure not going to last
And I have learned
If I got something good it’s gonna end soon

Ground I Ought To Stand On

I have made my own decisions

I have been down the road less taken

Mistakes are mine

The love is fine

And the heartbreak has left me shaken

I learn from it all and I see my path

I know the ground I ought to stand on

But it’s your side I want to be by

If we follow each other we might go down

But it will be together and with a love that falters none

You only live once and it’s making it tough

Except someone will get hurt

You stand staring me down and

I know the ground I ought to stand on

Far away and can’t hold your hand

This is where you tell me I am suppose to be

I had the love and I had your touch

We shared it all as if it was only us

We parted, but I thought I saw the light

I figured you just might get to be mine

Until you told me you found new ground to stand on

Sent my love back and told me yours is gone


I guess I have to find new ground to stand on

Miss Together

Miss Together

I loved you and you loved me

I opened my big mouth and all had to leave

Nothing feels quite the same

I like to say I’m to blame

The more I hurt somehow makes it all right

Still I miss good night

I miss love you, baby

And I miss together lately

It hasn’t been long and I already want it back

For reasons unknown I would turn back the clocks

Take back the tears, the sighs, the words

Bring back the laughs, the tender-hearted longing

I miss sharing the sweet things we wanted

I miss learning what haunts us

I miss love you, baby

And I miss together lately

There are a few things I want

I shouldn’t but I do

I don’t know how to fix what can’t be undone

Two hearts and cracks all through them, love

But I know

I miss talking through the day

I miss knowing you love me crazy

I miss love you, baby

And I miss together lately

Yeah, I miss love you, baby

And I miss together lately