DRAW CONCLUSIONS ON THE WALL: 2009

Sunday, August 30, 2009

How This Heart Bleeds

Just written in the last 20 minutes.

I’ve got a broken spirit and a loneliness to tame
Absolutely no way to transcend these blues
I’ve got the deepest sorrows and a mind full of blame
Holding a deep down truth I can’t send to you

Hold my tongue, suppress my views
But I can’t stop telling you I want you
Worst of all is this need
The most I’ve ever seen a heart bleed
To witness it is bad enough
To be the victim is most fucked up

Strong and brave
Be strong and brave
The weight of another drags me to my grave
I wish I believed that
I really do
Would be easier to get over you
I've tried these lies to deceive myself
But I'm still searchin' for a whole lotta help

I’ve got a broken spirit and a loneliness to tame
Absolutely no way to transcend these blues
I’ve got the deepest sorrows and a mind full of blame
Holding a deep down truth I can’t send to you

Hold my tongue, suppress my views
But I can’t stop telling you I want you
Worst of all is this need
The most I’ve ever seen a heart bleed
To witness it is bad enough
To be the victim is most fucked up

Worst of all is how this heart bleeds
I’m no witness, that’s bad enough
I’m the pathetic victim, I’m fucked up
Yeah, worst of all is how this heart bleeds
Worst of all is that this heart bleeds

Friday, August 28, 2009

Push & Shove (To Give My Love)

Something I jotted down pretty quickly last night. Inspired by one line from a Lindsey Buckingham song.

Never knew someone so willing to lose until I met you
Got to keep a cover on that wild, wild heart
Could lose the best love of your time
You might never know because you’re buckled in tight
The parachute’s on and you’re holding on for dear life
Every danger amplified
The sweetest little kitten is a tiger in your eyes
The shortest jump is the longest fall before you’ve even tried

And I’m left to fight
I’m left to crawl
I’m left to push and shove to give you my love at all

One mistake and I’m the devil in disguise
Subconscious beast, my sweet demise
What I’ve done I’ll forever regret
And you’re never gonna let me forget
But I’ve got the desire of the worst kind
I haven’t given up
No not quite, not yet

So I’m left to fight
I’m left to crawl
I’m left to push and shove to give you my love at all
Oh, to give my love at all

Never knew someone so willing to lose 'til I met you
Got to keep a cover on that wild, wild heart
Could lose the best love of your life

Oh, I’m left to fight
Left to crawl
Gonna lose the best love of all
Maybe the worst, something in between
How ya gonna know if you’re unwilling to fall

Yeah, gonna lose the best love of all
Well, could be the worst or something in between
How ya gonna know if you’re unwilling to fall

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Journal Entry

Written on 7/19/2009 just now. Not sure if it's finished, but I just want to post.

Here I am writing again
Only during the highest of highs
Or the lowest of lows
When I’ve got the full moon fever
The shakes and the sighs
Grab the pen and the paper
Now I just need your ear
It’s probably about you
So it’s something you should hear

I’m either confessing my love or maybe my pain
It could be both regardless I’m doing it again
But now you know that you’re my muse
The fuse is lit, I’ve got my excuse
A new song becomes a new journal entry
If I’m gonna write I’m gonna let the whole world see
Yeah, if I’m gonna write I’m gonna let the whole world see
But until the execs come a-knockin’ it’s you that will be my critic too
One day the whole world will know it’s about you

I’m gonna sit here
I’m gonna drink my wine
I’m gonna wish and hope some lyrics can save my life
Isn’t it romantic that I’m doing this?
A song written about you, isn’t that your wish?
Because it’s just what I need
Another serious, sad, ego-feeding love confession

But now you know that you’re my muse
The fuse is lit, I’ve got my excuse
But now you know that you’re my muse
The fuse is lit, I’ve got my excuse

Monday, May 11, 2009

Springsteen: Greensboro 5/02/09

Bruce: Greensboro 5/02/09

Bruce Springsteen: Greensboro 5/02/09

From the ol' phone again.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

I met Bruce Springsteen!

And I took this photo with my camera. I was lucky enough to snap the photo in Tulsa, OK. My first show of the Working On A Dream Tour. It wasn't my dream meeting by any chance, but at least it occurred. I told him I went to quite a few shows on the Magic Tour, and that out of all the shows St. Louis was my favorite. So, I questioned when he would tour Missouri again. I got the obvious Bruce giggle and, "Well, we always get there eventually," or some similar answer. I then blurted out, "But it took six years last time!" Oops.