How This Heart Bleeds

Just written in the last 20 minutes.


I’ve got a broken spirit and a loneliness to tame
Absolutely no way to transcend these blues
I’ve got the deepest sorrows and a mind full of blame
Holding a deep down truth I can’t send to you

Hold my tongue, suppress my views
But I can’t stop telling you I want you
Worst of all is this need
The most I’ve ever seen a heart bleed
To witness it is bad enough
To be the victim is most fucked up

Strong and brave
Be strong and brave
The weight of another drags me to my grave
I wish I believed that
I really do
Would be easier to get over you
I've tried these lies to deceive myself
But I'm still searchin' for a whole lotta help

I’ve got a broken spirit and a loneliness to tame
Absolutely no way to transcend these blues
I’ve got the deepest sorrows and a mind full of blame
Holding a deep down truth I can’t send to you

Hold my tongue, suppress my views
But I can’t stop telling you I want you
Worst of all is this need
The most I’ve ever seen a heart bleed
To witness it is bad enough
To be the victim is most fucked up

Worst of all is how this heart bleeds
I’m no witness, that’s bad enough
I’m the pathetic victim, I’m fucked up
Yeah, worst of all is how this heart bleeds
Worst of all is that this heart bleeds

Push & Shove (To Give My Love)

Something I jotted down pretty quickly last night. Inspired by one line from a Lindsey Buckingham song.



Never knew someone so willing to lose until I met you
Got to keep a cover on that wild, wild heart
Could lose the best love of your time
You might never know because you’re buckled in tight
The parachute’s on and you’re holding on for dear life
Every danger amplified
The sweetest little kitten is a tiger in your eyes
The shortest jump is the longest fall before you’ve even tried

And I’m left to fight
I’m left to crawl
I’m left to push and shove to give you my love at all

One mistake and I’m the devil in disguise
Subconscious beast, my sweet demise
What I’ve done I’ll forever regret
And you’re never gonna let me forget
But I’ve got the desire of the worst kind
I haven’t given up
No not quite, not yet

So I’m left to fight
I’m left to crawl
I’m left to push and shove to give you my love at all
Oh, to give my love at all

Never knew someone so willing to lose 'til I met you
Got to keep a cover on that wild, wild heart
Could lose the best love of your life

Oh, I’m left to fight
Left to crawl
Gonna lose the best love of all
Maybe the worst, something in between
How ya gonna know if you’re unwilling to fall

Yeah, gonna lose the best love of all
Well, could be the worst or something in between
How ya gonna know if you’re unwilling to fall